Labor day weekend!

Ah, it's only Tuesday night (I guess technically Wednesday) and I'm already looking forward to the weekend (although I only have a day of classes on Thursday).

I'm glad to see that people are reading and commenting on my blog! Makes me excited to see that someone out there is reading whatever crap I write up. Maybe I should edit it and make it neater and nicer for YOU guys out there reading... ehehehe.... or not.

So.. as you guys can see, my bf brought this little... darling to me last night.

And here goes the full story...
The bf and I have been having problems. He wanted his space, I gave him space, and with time, I grew distant (albeit it was only about a week and a half hahaha). Not like I completely cut off from him either. Anywho, I told him about it and of course he said I was making a big deal out of it. Blah blah! So I think it was Sunday night when I told him that he was pushing me away, whether he intended to or not. I was actually kind of upset that he wasn't checking up on me to see if I was feeling better (he KIND of has, but only when I brought it up, so it doesn't count!). Anywho, he suggests that we hang out the night after. I told him I wasn't pressuring him to do anything, and if he felt pressured, he shouldn't do it. ONLYYYYYYYYYY and IF ONLYYYYYYYYY he wanted to see me, then I would. He said he did, and that was that.

The next day rolls around, and all day, I let him be. Usually, I'd be the one checking up on it, msging/texting him during the day while he's at work to see what we are planning to do that night. BUT, I frankly I wanted to see how much effort he was willing to put in. All day I kept myself busy, hung out with friends, and 7pm rolls around, when he gets off work. At 7:01, like clockwork, he gives me a call and asks me what I'm doing then sounded disappointed to see that I was out hanging out with friends, since I'm usually at home waiting for him by the time he gets off work. But nope, I've wasted so much time waiting on him to get off work, cuz he often gets tied up talking to a coworker or his boss afterwards and all I do is WAIT. *NOTE* this girl, DONNA, is SUPER IMPATIENT.

He tells me that he was gonna talk to his boss for a min and he'd call me back. 2hrs and 15 minutes later, he calls. Within that time, I sent him 2 texts and called him once to see wtf was going on. I was really annoyed at this point, because he was the one that wanted to hang out with me then decides to disappear. I was about to flip shit! He finally calls me around 9:15 and says "OMG donna, you'll never guess what happened!" In a super monotone and not-at-all excited voice, I ask, "what." Then he tells me the story of how he was talking with his boss and went outside since his boss needed a cig break and he heard strange noises. Come to find out, he finds this little 3 week old kitty in the bushes at work. So he was running around trying to find food and a little basket and blankets and bottles and whatnot for it................. and completely forgot that he was supposed to call me. I understand guys are ADD and all but he completely loses track sometimes and it's really irritating, especially in situations like this.

He sounded super excited (he loves cats) and was telling me he'd be over at my place in 5 minutes. Then he finally caught the drift and asked me why I sounded mad. I told him exactly why. Now... usually, he'd be like "ok..whatever I'll see you later then" or something and avoid the situation any further. Instead, he asked me if it was alright if he could bring the cat over (even though we have a 6 month old lab/boxer mix who'd love to eat it).
This is Duke, and Turbo aka, POOPY.

I reluctantly agreed and he popped in with a kitty in a basket. LOL!

After seeing the kitty fall asleep, he asked me if I had dinner yet, and that he was super hungry, so we went out to grab something to eat. Although I hadn't eaten, I frankly didn't have much appetite from being sick, and swallowing any drink/food was a pain cuz of the sore throat. He was in a strangely good bf mood, because as soon as we got out of my house, he hugged me and said he missed me. Then he held my hand in the car, proceeded to tell me that I looked beautiful that night, even though I was sick and wasn't dolled up (then added, "oh crap, that probably came out wrong, but i do mean you look beautiful!"), held my hand while we were seated at the table, and gave me kisses across the table even though I was coughing up a nasty storm. hahaha. Honestly, if I were him, I dunno if I'd want to kiss my sick gf who was coughing up mucus LOL.

So we get back, and we had a nice substantial talk for the first time in a while. No more avoiding topics, no more "dropping" topics, no more excuses. He owned up to the fact that he was at fault for not putting as much effort into rebuilding the relationship, apologized for it, and admitted that he wasn't putting as much effort into it as I was and that he appreciated me for it. The talk was actually pretty quick and painless. I looked like I was crying cuz I was lying on my side, but my eyes and nose had been runny all day! Anyway, he tells me that he was heading home this weekend down to Pensacola, and asked me to come along. He asked me to come down with him 2 months ago, but I was down in Destin on a family vacation with my parents, so it was a no go. He actually hasn't been home since then because of Waterfest in July and just busy with work this month. I'm not sure how I feel about it, since it is a 3 day weekend, and I don't know how well it would work out spending 3 days with him and his family. I would be meeting his parents + sister for the first time, along with his bestfriend Mike, and it would be a great opportunity to put in a last beach trip before fall rolls in. Our 8 months is actually coming up this Saturday, so maybe we'll have a nice bonding time this weekend and it won't be so bad since his parents seem really cool from what I've been hearing.

The 6'2 ~200lb bf... and the 6" ~2lb kitty



Aside from all that, I feel better with the whole being sick thing... BUT I am once again in bad terms with my ex bf again. hahaha. I've been venting to him about my relationship issues and he's been pretty subjective about it, putting in his own experiences he had in his previous relationship (he's still crazy about this girl). He was actually telling me to move on and look for other people instead of waiting for Chris. Bastard! Why would I do that? That's being shady and I'd be seeing people behind his back! Long story short, I for some reason mentioned it to Chris, then mentioned to Jason (the ex) that I told Chris, and Jason flips out and tells me I'm stupid for misinterpreting him and that he'll never give me advice again (not like I took it anyway). He then continues his rant about how he thinks all girls are stupid, and says "sorry, but you just added to it." Except, I told him that I was sorry that he felt that way, and to let me know when he gets over his "stupid" exgf, and meets his next stupid gf. I'd gladly congratulate him on being stupid enough to date someone stupid. Maybe he should be gay then?

OH YEAH! I forgot to add, but I sat around since I had a lot of time today, and played with some shadows! Used gold and some rusty looking color and some shimmery browns... paired with some heavy mascara and not so heavy black eyeliner. It looks awesome! Woo. Then I decided to see if I could make it a little more interesting and added a turquoise glitter liner to it on top of the black eyeliner. Actually didn't look too bad. Sadly, I was playing around with colors and botched the other eye. Hahaha, maybe I'll get a chance to do the look this weekend! My blog has been lacking some beauty related junk...mm

DRAMA! Oh, and happy belated 7 months to uss <3

So, it's that time again when I have to write a paper and prepare a speech by tomorrow and I decide to sit here and write an entry instead.

DRAMA: So as far as that goes, I've opened pandora's box the other day when I came across a forum that I was linked to by an ex. It was about bikes (turbo hayabusaaaa). I looked around then began to browse through the forum, when I realized that it's the same forum that hosts car meets weekly in my area, and that I've actually been to one with my bf few months back. He hasn't gone in a while, and I forgot about it, so I thought it was interesting how I ended up there and kept browsing.

Then I came across a thread, giving an award for best/worst of the forums. After quickly skimming through and noticing that my ex was nominated for a bunch of asshole-like things, I saw that the 2nd post after the awards were given, had my bf's s/n in it. Of course that intrigued me, so I kept reading. The post said something along the lines that my bf should've won the best NSF thread for his exgf thread. What??? exgf??? SO THIS IDIOT curious george, aka, donna, decides to hit the search button and look for it. Voila, it comes up, but sadly, I needed to join the forums. It was a sign I should stop looking, but no, I persisted. I finally saw the thread, and my bf posted that his exgf was a slutbag/whore and that they should flick her off if they saw her. His post apparently had pictures, but it was no longer available (the post was approximately 9 months back). It wasn't that interesting, so I kept reading through the pages (there were 9) and I saw various random pictures of guys posting topless girls saying this and that and acting like guys. Then I stopped on page 6. One of the guys apparently had saved copies of the original pictures, and reposted them on his private server. 6 pictures of Lauren, my bf's ex that he dated officially for 2 weeks, was on the page. 2 of her in one of his shirts, the rest, topless, on his bed.

...

What the hell did I just dig myself into.

I linked that specific post to Chris and said I didn't know what to make of the situation. He began to explain to me that he didn't mean anything to her and that she had cheated on him so he was lashing out at her, and only uploaded 2 of the clothed pictures of her, and the rest were stolen by his coworker and uploaded via his account (the pictures were under someone else's account so that checked out). He said it was in the past and it was the last thing he wanted me to see and that he wished we could just drop it and move on. I didn't know what to think. We talked about it, had some dinner, I got to feeling better, and went over to his place, and all I could think about was that skank on his bed! It actually took me at least half an hour before I sat next to him on his bed after he said I was being weird and needed to get over it. We spent some good quality time together, then I headed home after tucking him in. I was all happy and dandy when I started thinking and noticed loose ends and details that didn't add up.

Somewhere in my skimming through the 6 pages, I remember reading that Chris had posted something about photobucket taking down his pictures because they were in violation of the terms. This only happens when there is inappropriate or copy righted content... and why are clothed picture considered inappropriate... So I began to scan through again. Sigh, wtf is wrong with me. I looked through, and everything began to confirm my suspicion (when he told me he only posted 2 pics, my head was screaming BULLSHIT, but I decided to take his word anyway). I couldn't find the post he wrote about photobucket anymore, when I realized he edited the posts right after I mentioned it to him earlier that day! WTF??? So being a bit more alarmed, I began to thoroughly look through the contents. As with all forums, when a post is quoted, it doesn't change because the original poster changes his or her content. UNluckily for Chris, of the 2-3 posts he edited out, they were all quoted right under him by some dude. After getting increasingly upset that he lied to me, I texted him: "You lied to me" hehe, talk about being direct.

So the next morning, (our 7 months...) he gives me a call and says that he doesn't know what I'm talking about. I was dumbfounded that he would actually take it this far and still deny it. I explained to him what I had found and why it didn't make sense. He was still giving me excuses...... when I was finally fed up and said, if I were to ask your coworker right now, would he tell me what you did? I guess he felt guilty, finally admitted to uploading all 6 pictures. Now, I was ready to forget about the whole situation, EVEN if he had posted the topless pictures of her. As far as I was concerned, I didn't like the girl as much as he did, considering he cheated on her and I don't know her. Frankly, I didn't give a fuck about her. But I was just disappointed that he would lie to me and take it this far. He explained to me that there are some things that he wouldn't want me seeing, and that he didn't want it to hurt our relationship and possibly break my trust because of something he did that he isn't proud of before he even met me. He wanted it to just go away, but I didn't let it go and it came to that point. He said he wanted to protect me from it. Umm, as much as that sounds all squishy and nice, I hate it when people tell me they wanted to protect me from something by lying to me. I told him straight up that I'll forgive him and forget about it as long as he promises to be honest in the future. If he doesn't want to talk about something because he's ashamed, he should just tell me the reason why and tell me he doesn't want to talk about it. It's not like I'm going to strangle him for it xD

Anyway, later that night, we got together and I cooked, and he invited some friends over and hung out. Then we spent some MORE quality time together.... lol.


He looks super happy here, like we never even fought. It could be that his hand is on my boob -_-.

Anyway, onto a lighter note. Courtney was actually texting Chris the night I was out at dinner with him talking about the issue the night it came up. She was being retarded and he said he remembered her saying she wanted to talk to him about something. Well he spent the entire night with me so I guess she never got a chance. I ask him today what she wanted, and he said she wanted to know whether he was mad at her cuz he hadn't been talking to her lately. Hah! GOOD! I laughed and said that he should've told her that she's not worth his breath to talk to. I even jokingly added on that I'd do his house chores for a month if he actually said that to her.

Few minutes later, he sends me a text saying he said it, which she replied "wtf? what's your deal?" and that now I had to do his chores. WTF#@$@#%@% I asked if she cried, and he said no. I said it didn't count if she didn't cry. :)

So yeah, now I'm sitting here... half writing my paper, and somewhat doing research for my speech that's to be delivered tomorrow...........................................sigh. I also need to pack tomorrow and be done with it so I can have an easy moving day on Saturday.

Hope you girlies are having a fun week, I know my life always gets a little crazy right before finals. BOO!!!

I am an awesome GF. oh.. and an intro.

Damn you girls! Made me really want to start my own blog so I can tell you guys all about my life. I'm so self-centered... oh well, better out than in!

Anyway, this is me......... in a toga LOL. Dang it looks like I'm about to have a nip slip. I DIDN'T THOUGH!


I just recently got into make up and I've been playing with it, but I've been back to my neutral-not-so-make-up-filled faces again, and I guess that's kind of good... I just don't look as polished, hahaha.

Me, without anything on face, and I guess I decided to look like a clown that day.


The bf and I, it's such a weird picture, but I love it, hahah.

Blurry....... booo.



^ a pic from my cousin's wedding. The cousin that's standing next to me is the bride's brother. Wtf is with these blurry pictures. I guess nobody has steady hands these days. I did some kinda smokey look but it got all icky cuz it was super hot out. Gross.

I love pictures. I love taking pictures of everything, especially ME. Hahahaha, not really, but I do love taking pics with the bf. Too bad we haven't had much time for it lately considering he's been on his trip, and just got back. I actually have gazillion things to do tonight, and instead, it's 2:05am and I'm sitting here making a blog. Wtf is wrong with me. I disabled facebook to have one less thing to waste my time with, and I start up another to eat up more time. UGHHH.

So I have 6 psychology quizzes to take online before Friday (anyone wanna take it for me?) my informative speech due tomorrow (I need to finish the formal outline, key word outline, cite that crap in APA... who the hell uses APA? why can't we all use MLA? fck.#$@#R$#) ... psychology exam Friday, and Ethics paper on a book I didn't read due also on Friday. So while I was working hard today to get all this done........... NOT....... I text my bf to check on what he's doing for the night, and I was planning on telling him that I was uber busy. Turns out, he's sick as a dog and he left work early (he never does that :( ) so being a super duper awesom gf, I pushed back going to the library till later and picked up some food, some soup, and went over to his place. Gave him a nice long massage (all that working out as been helping I guess, cuz I felt no burning sensation after giving him a longass massage!), then he wanted to cuddle and heated me to death....... yes, heated, he didn't exactly have a fever, but he was hotter than usual. Then he went to eat some food I brought, and when I asked if he had taken some painkillers for the aching, he says no, and that he wasn't sure if he had any. Sure enough, he was out! It was already 9:30 at this point and the library closes at midnight during the summer, I was in a hurry, but I felt bad, so I went to grab some aspirin for him, FED HIM the damn thing, then left.

Not to mention what happened last night... We were supposed to cook dinner and just hang out and catch up since he's been gone all weekend, but when I call him to see what was up, he tells me that he was going out to dinner with his coworkers and half-invited me out. It didn't really sound like he wanted me there, and I was cool with it, so I told him to go. I did mention that power was out at my place cuz a lightning struck the power line and set it on FIYAAAA. It was kinda cool. So he told me to go over to his place and wait for him..... 2 hrs later, he tells me he's finally coming, and apologized for being late, but his boss wanted to talk to him. Before he does though, he has the balls to ask me to do his damn laundry! WTF! And guess what, I did it. Why am I such an awesometastic gf? I tell myself this everyday so I don't feel bad when I act like a bitch to him.... ehehehe


Anyway, enough about him, about us, but I have a feeling I'll blog mostly about my life happenings with him and school and a little bit of make up and whatnot.


OH, and "Donnalananananana" comes from my name, and one of my best friend's name, Svetlana, somehow fused together to be donnalana, which then morphed into donnalanananana.... which some of my friends actually call me by. Just thought I'd add before I go back to my fcking alfkjlwekfj speech. Guess what it's on, GARBAGE ISLAND! Sounds gross, but it actually is an interesting topic. You all should read up!